what is Shabbat?
we are here for
something
maybe a different thing
for each of us
we could take a poll
or have a discussion
who would speak up
who might hide in the shadows
who might be glowing
who might be confused
who might think like me
where all of the above apply
meanwhile, life goes on
and Shabbat spills over us
faithfully
every Shabbat
taharah
he began to die
last night
he fought it
as we all do
some of us win
for a while
he won for 88 years
and now he lets us
bathe him
warm water on cold skin
into a fresh white
shroud
we clothe him
for the last time
and lower him
into the open pine casket
we say good-byes
as lids are lowered
and sealed
forever
carrying
full tray
of
inedible fresh treats
tripped
onto the floor
drinking
fine port wine
a
painful experience
wasp
sting on the lip
cheer
nevertheless
colored
lights in the succah
not a
leaf unturned
guests
on yellow lawn
fall
harvest hanging from hut
quiet
sounds of autumn
hot
dishes are clean
cat on
sleepy hostess lap
house lights almost off
9-24-2002
letter
from kibbutz gal-on
a soldier dies
just before the newest
cease-fire
a mayor comes
from jerusalem
to the gravesite
his tears stain kibbutz rocks
the color of solomon's temple walls
we live
in its shadow
in its light
and in its tears
we are drowning
generations keep coming
in the shul
on yom kippur
in my body and lines
i have become an elder
in a front row
babies are nursed
by mothers half my age
good friends are in their eighties
hebrew has been in me
longer than forty passovers
and there is no turning back
i'm older than the president
older than baseball heroes
even my kids have their own lives
they own things like cars and computers
they pay rent in cities i haven't even been to
they have best friends for life whom i haven't met
my kids on this planet somewhere else
and i'm still here where they were born
i'm not too old
just way older than i can accept
each morning
when i languidly rise
and add another notch
to bedpost and face
11-7-2000
after some degree
of candle lighting
wine, and challah
the many blessings
led to pasta and eggplant
and my questions
about god and man
about life, history, and time
we struggled with answers
almost getting there
but...
when dessert arrived
our cosmic consciousness
refocused on the chocolates,
the sponge cake, and on the
chocolates again
kabbalah
twenty-five men
mostly jewish
gathering themselves
as a clan
at shambala
into open packets
thus to receive
the kabbalah's matrix
we let this 700 year old tree
sink its roots
into ours
with ten equal
branches
pointing arithmetically
one to the next
we follow into
this forest
question by question
the teachers
have come
to excite
with some degree
of frustration
they guard this secret
they so much
want to reveal
perhaps one drop
creating one ripple
reaching one cell
of my darkest thoughts
i drove home
earlier than the rest
dawn was not far off
and my cats were
waiting
Succoth 5760
company came
to our decorated desert hut
fruits reflecting smokey sunlight
hung from woven branches
as the full moon
playing checkers
entered
the rabbi turned
edible
morsels of ahi tuna
skewered peppers
mushrooms and voices
from past wanderings
now the high moon
is quietly watching
as cats refuse to sleep
under this night's canopy
of heat
miracles over
miracles
elijah may sing
for the rabbi
under the next
full moon in her birthplace
music only she can hear
shabbat in the sun
or on the couch
or playing with:
cats
computer
quilts
cooking
all in all the glorious
choices are ours
completely
we say, "it's a beautiful day"
whatever the morning window
reveals
sun is easily embraced
rain and wind are
passionate
all conducted by
an infinite baton
rising and falling
to the swirl and beat
of our spirits
the standing
crowd singing
as the torah passes by
kiss by kiss
touch by touch
the boys and their mom
all blood and sinew and eager
sharing their studies of hebrew wisdom
bringing their very application
into a community's heart now throbbing
ecstatic and proud
we gather up the
tunes
and wipe our tears
silenced by perfection
stilled by perfection
fed by perfection
as a lotus blossom
floating upon a lake
of winter sky
Mickey Chalfin lives in Albion, CA with his wife and 3 cats. Mickey's Email is mc@mcn.org
© 2002 Mickey Chalfin
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